I got a call last Tuesday from my surgeon with my pathology results from surgery. Lymph node involvement was confirmed to be negative. Such a huge relief to know the cancer hadn't spread, I can't even tell you. Also, the mass was smaller than they originally had thought, being less than 2cm in size. This means that my cancer was in Stage I. Thank gawd. As horrible as a cancer diagnosis is, it is what it is, and I feel blessed to know that mine was at least caught at such an early stage.
On top of that, I have to say that I am the happiest that I have been in a long time. In months, even, from even before my diagnosis. Not to say that I don't have any complaints, because I do, but I am loving life right now. Why? Because each morning I wake up knowing I am one day closer to full recovery. Every day things get a little easier (for now, at least.. until chemo starts.. bah!) and I've accepted that for now, I have a new 'norm.' But it's only for now.
But most of all, I am loving life because I can see so much more clearly now, that there is a reason why life throws these road blocks at us. Not only does it create a challenge which in the end proves to ourselves what exactly we can overcome, but they give us lessons that we will learn so much from. I know that for myself, I have a new appreciation for so many things in my life. There are so many things that I will never take for granted again, from the little things like being able to wash my hair with both hands, to my family and the love and respect that I have for them.
At this particular moment, I feel that life is so great. I get to occupy my time with doing the things I like, and more importantly, with the people who make me happy. It's the good life. ♥
Vanessa I cried tears of joy as I read this. Easter brings hope to many, for various reasons. This Easter you are my inspiration to enjoy life to the fullest and find joy in the little things. Thank you!! Love you
ReplyDeleteAwe, love you, Becky! Now you're the one that's making me cry.. hehe.
ReplyDeletethis is pretty awesome, vanessa. we haven't had a chat in yeeeears and i had no idea what was going on until recent posts. but this is truly amazing, and i'm glad you're one of the few that takes something like this and does something truly positive with their lives afterward. you have every reason to now, it seems! take care of yourself, and be good :P
ReplyDeletethanks, jer! and i'm always good, hope you can say the same :P haha jk
ReplyDeleteHi Vanessa!
ReplyDeleteIt was so nice to see you during our trip! As always, it was fun times with lots of laughs :). Keep strong and know we are always thinking about you and praying for you.*hugs*
" No trial has come to you but what is human. God is faithful and will not let you be tried beyond your strength ; but with the trial He will also provide a way out, so that you will be able to bear it " ( 1 Corinthians 10:13)